For those who don't know me, I was loosely raised in and out of the LDS faith. I wasn't too much of a regular and my ward until my older years where I got the opportunity to service as a counselor to my fellow Laurels. I also served as a member of Seminary Council. Despite my families non-involvement in the church this didn't not deter me from the church and the love I felt for the savior.
Nathan was closely raised in the LDS faith, attended church every Sunday, planned to serve a mission, and he too was a member of Seminary Council at his school. When it came time for Nate to receive his Mission call he was deemed "unsuitable" to serve due to his constant and debilitating anxiety.
Fast forward to down the road Nathan & I meet, dated, and got engaged, yay! At this time we made the decision not to get married and sealed in the Temple. It was something that we prayed and discussed frequently and was very hard. We simply were not ready to take upon this gift. Many of you might be thinking "if you weren't ready to go to the temple, than what makes your think your ready to get married" or "whatever you guys weren't worthy". Those thoughts and comments are fine to have and don't bother us because we know the truth. Plus, I too am guilty of doing that.
So here we are 2.5 years later with a big decision ahead of us... are we ready??? We have done many things to prepare and made adjustments where needs be, even enrolled in a temple prep class. Nathan has worries of the "obligations" that will come with this new change (did I mention he has anxiety?!)
Mine worries come from the actual temple part. I have no idea what I am doing or what to do, what needs to be done, NOTHING! Being the control freak that I am this is not okay.
Like I explained earlier my family is not involved in the church and despite Nate's family's involvement in the church, I just don't feel comfortable taking about these matters. I don't have many friends who have married in the temple and most of Nate's friends are single so that is out of the question. I just want some advise, guidance, a checklist. Help!
I am excited/terrified to move on to this next chapter in our lives together and know that we are making the right choice. Plus as my sister puts it "it's another reason to celebrate, I'm down". So blogger/reader friends if you have any advise for this wide eye'd little lady please do share, anything helps.
Until next time...
xxoo
